back in new york city. one of my goals when i was younger was to not have to be always waiting for the weekend, hated that mindset, but i realized lately that i have far exceeded my expectations of accomplishing that goal, i never know what day it is now. i feel like i look like i'm dead, my health choices aren't good, people keep offering me their seats like i need them on full subway trains which i haven't figured out yet. this month i spent time with the same four or five people all the time like a real person instead of meeting and barely connecting with new people every other day and then not really staying. i had a lot of sleepovers, and also think i slept more than i was awake. almost all of the photo projects i shot this month were new experiences and i'm learning more and getting more confused every day. i haven't worked as hard as i was convinced that i would, i'm trying to change that. i really love the people in my life and i'm going to try to be more present when i'm awake and see what happens.